I wish I didn’t live under a system that makes me feel worthless

Whenever I’m not actively earning money. I wish I didn’t live under a system that makes me feel like having chronic illness makes me irresponsible. I wish I felt like I was worthy of sleep, time off, relaxation. I wish I could afford those things, but my health insurance premium is 400 bucks a month and my meds don’t come in generic. Like I make a good living, I earn a very reasonable amount of money, but D and I are both sick in ways that require constant expensive treatment .