I am not from that group, it would feel condescending to go on about how fucked that is.
Agreeing to do it feels like maybe I’m reinforcing bad social messages and also makes me personally uncomfortable
And just saying no feels like I’m trying to claim I’m somehow better or don’t benefit from his group’s oppression`
and like maybe I should just do it, and be uncomfortable because like being uncomfortable is part of remembering the fucked up position of power I have in that dynamic.
Google is being unhelpful and like having problematic fetishes that are part of my coping with misogyny and so on I kind of get it and don’t want to like take that away from the dude but then like thinking about how freaked out and deeply hurt some of my friends would be if they heard a call like that… IDK
Thoughts From The Peacock Angel 