Read Hedda Nussbaum’s book
Honestly it’s very very worth reading, crucially important. My abuser was so much like hers in a myriad of ways… mine obviously never escalated quite as far, but I do have permanent damage from him… I think my bad eyesight is in part because of his targeting my eyes a lot when he was going after me.
He also had me believing in the most unbelievable shit. I’ve always been skeptical but he had me believing in ghosts and in all sorts of fucking bull, like True Blood wanting to use one of his songs and some dude wanting to kill him
Thoughts From The Peacock Angel 