I keep coming up with all these cognitive justifications for feeling sad, and then I’m like “Oh shit, right, grandad just died and I’m grieving”

Is this guilt or mixing ADD meds with coffee and three cups of tea?

The Madeira Darling story

Me: *listening to How Soon Is Now*
D: Wait you’re Smiths upset, shit that’s really bad
Me: We’re talking about divorce, I’m worried about someone else I love self destructing or never forgiving me… I’m pretty upset
D: I mean I know you’re worried about divorce and whether a relationship you value deeply is incompatible with another relationship that you’ve long valued that’s since gone toxic but you don’t want to abandon it and the wellbeing of people you love, but I didn’t know you were *Smiths* upset.

I Am Very Very Sad

and not ok.

Please do not ask anything of me right now.

Madeira, You Can’t Just Cry Because Capitalism is Slowly Destroying Your Mental and Physical Health

Because otherwise you’d never stop crying.

Stop it.

Buck up and get back to work otherwise it’ll just kill you faster.

Oh for the love of god it’s a cartoon about a romance between two hats

Stop crying immediately. What the fuck is wrong with you?

(the you in this post is me, I am yelling at myself for crying about two hats being separated, as you can see, me drinking tonight was an A+ plan)

Things That Have Made Me Cry When I’m PMSing

The Krampus Movie

The Labor Theory of Value because it is so beautiful

Any number of humorous vines

Things I was masturbating to at the time because they were cute or possibly invoked literally any emotion at all including arousal

The Internationale

Thinking about the bread and roses strike

A psychologist’s report on D because I just love him so much

Not being able to find my eyelash glue

Fanfic for fandoms I’m not in about characters I am not familiar with

Even considering how much I like my friends

Fallout 4 raiders having things like teddy bears in their loot

A Monkees’ song literally right now

The concept of holidays

The kitchen counter

Sour candy because I was enjoying it too much

The amusement I am currently experiencing writing this list.

ALL FEELINGS ARE CRYING

Also I’ve Noticed I’m Only Afraid of Things I Can’t Be Angry At

If there’s a thing to fight, it’s usually not scary to me, then I just get enraged, but if there’s nothing to fight then I’m terrified.