Tag: marriage

Well after a lot of talking

We sorta realized that it was little day to day shit that was part of what was making our relationship go fucko and the fucked up thing is that that shit will be an issue in any relationship you have and so while you may fantasize about running off and living some dream life… well the dream life will still involve bills and squabbles about the dishes, and so pretty much any relationship you have will require you to do that work as part of what you have to do to keep shit good.

New relationships are fun because none of that is involved.

This probably sounds obvious as fuck but a reminder never hurts and like sorting out our mess might make a huge difference in how we deal with third parties… so yeah

Me: *listening to How Soon Is Now*
D: Wait you’re Smiths upset, shit that’s really bad
Me: We’re talking about divorce, I’m worried about someone else I love self destructing or never forgiving me… I’m pretty upset
D: I mean I know you’re worried about divorce and whether a relationship you value deeply is incompatible with another relationship that you’ve long valued that’s since gone toxic but you don’t want to abandon it and the wellbeing of people you love, but I didn’t know you were *Smiths* upset.

What is marriage?

Marriage is a lifetime commitment

Marriage is patience and understanding and lasting love

Marriage is a sacred vow

Marriage is tenderness and trust

Marriage is an increasingly complex geometric form

Marriage is the incomprehensible vastness of time

Marriage is squelching noises and erotic terror

Marriage is Kate Winslet in a film about making the film Titanic

Marriage is the wealth of nations and a small shoe

Marriage is a vision of distant fog veiled plains.

Marriage is  chaos.

Marriage is hot cocoa on a winter day

Marriage is someone to take care of you when you’re sick.

Marriage is an electrical storm on a mountain range.

I Think For Me Being Mono

Doesn’t mean never experiencing romantic or sexual attraction outside of my relationship, but feeling super freaked out and upset at the possibility of acting on it.

Like is the fact that even the possibility of doing that makes me feel guilty and scared and worried even if my partner is totally chill just social programming or is that just me?  I think it might just be me.