I want to write a sapphic version of “The Venus In Furs”

I identify so strongly with the way men are characterized in these lines:

“Don’t you know me yet? Yes, I am _cruel_–since you take so much
delight in that word-and am I not entitled to be so? Man is the one
who desires, woman the one who is desired. This is woman’s entire but
decisive advantage. Through his passion nature has given man into
woman’s hands, and the woman who does not know how to make him her
subject, her slave, her toy, and how to betray him with a smile in the
end is not wise.”

“Exactly your principles,” I interrupted angrily.

“They are based on the experience of thousands of years,” she
replied ironically, while her white fingers played over the dark fur.
“The more devoted a woman shows herself, the sooner the man sobers
down and becomes domineering. The more cruelly she treats him and the
more faithless she is, the worse she uses him, the more wantonly she
plays with him, the less pity she shows him, by so much the more will
she increase his desire, be loved, worshipped by him. So it has
always been, since the time of Helen and Delilah, down to Catherine
the Second and Lola Montez.”

I Identify So Much With Severin In Venus In Furs

it’s not even funny, I’m like “I know that feel, Henry Sacher Masoch-bro” with the desire for the unattainable object of desire, the ideal love being a lover of whose love you are unworthy because clearly you’re with the best possible partner then, they have greater value than you and so in a weird way you’ve won.

The objectified ideal dominant, who enjoys using your desire for them against you is almost never what real dominants get off on, but my understanding of the desire for this untouchable ideal of desirability, of beauty is what makes me a good prodomme, because I know what they want because of what I want

I Think The Reason Being A BDSM Bottom Is Enjoyable Might Be Explained With A Combination of Two Factors:

1. The sunk cost fallacy: Meaning the more you “invest” in something (time, money etc) the more valuable you believe it is.

2. Our brain is our most important sexual organ: Meaning that the better you believe sex is the better it is.

So, because you went through pain/humiliation/etc to get that orgasm, you believe that orgasm will be better and because of how  the brain works, the more enjoyable you think your orgasm is going to be the more enjoyable it will be.

This is also why sex workers’ clients actually enjoy themselves more the more they paid for the experience.

Tops may enjoy it in part because A: they’re reflecting their partner’s heightened (sunk cost fallacy) based enjoyment, B: May be experiencing some sunk cost fallacy enjoyment of their own because BDSM is complicated and they had to learn skills, and quite possibly purchase equipment to do it properly, and go through the mental effort of planning the scene