As A Mentally Ill Person (TW: Suicide)

I feel that refusing to acknowledge that sometimes toxic behaviors are treatable side effects of mental illness is actually ableist and it fucking upsets me.

I mean like Richard Chase (TW: Pretty much everything, do not read about him if you are feeling even remotely delicate) is a really good example. When his abusive mom took him off his meds, he did like truly unspeakable things. After he was caught and medicated again he killed himself because he couldn’t cope with the horrific shit he’d done. His case is obviously massively rare, but I think it gets my point across.

Like the whole “Toxic behaviors are never symptoms of mental illness” feels like NTs making excuses for demonizing people who have done fucked up shit as a result of mental illness and then calling anyone who challenges them on that ableist.

Me, wearing a floor length ballgown to therapy:

Y’ know like I have problems, but not like problem problems

Seriously though the fact that we have so much “sad little girl” stuff

and so little sad adult woman stuff is a little creepy.

Like yr pain stops existing once you hit 30 or you’re supposed to be dead by then cause it’s not cute anymore. Or like if they do show up they’re monsters, or cautionary tales or irredeemable and that sucks.

Sorry in advance for being so intrusive, but what mental illness are you referring that you have? I’m mentally ill myself and I don’t think my mental health could handle sex work as a profession. (Or any customer job.) Being employed is tough with these issues.

it’s no problem, I’m very open about what I have. Add, ptsd, pmdd, was severely anorexic when I was a teenager which is one of the reasons I couldn’t finish high school, I’m on a cocktail of a fuck ton of meds to be even as functional as I am

aaaaaaaaaaand the possibility of last minute travel triggered my anxiety really bad

and so now I have to stay home because I’m too sick and am missing convention.

I’m a terrible delegate and a bad person.

You know there’s a stimulant anti-anxiety drug that was developed in Russia and has never been brought out in the states because there’s no profit in bringing it over and testing it.

It’s called Bromantane.

As someone with anxiety and ADD issues this would be a fucking god send to me. I’d really like to maybe set up crowdfunding stateside approval testing and then distributing it at cost (plus maybe a small amount of profit which would be used to test and import other drugs that would be useful but are not profitable.