Tag: suicide

I’m thinking of taking out a life insurance policy

To give myself a reason not to off myself for at least two years… it’s not just Trump, this year’s been hard emotionally and financially, shit happened in the IWW that really broke shit and broke up my friend group.

There are people who hate me for no reason, think I’m a monster…. I’m scared of losing my access to healthcare. I had a brief fucked up relationship with a woman outside of my marriage and it ended badly and I feel horrible and disgusted with myself for it even though I was completely honest about it. I hate my body. I hate my own neurosis and inability to consistently do things most people do.

I determined to stay and fight but I’m worn out and was never much good to start with. I’m getting older and I can see the signs of it. I just don’t want to hurt the people I love…. and yes this is me seeking attention, yes this is a cry for help because I feel this way and I’m scared and please help me.

The Fact That This SWERF/TERF Racist Pseudo-Feminist’s Accusations

Which were blatantly made to discredit a WOC who was calling out this white lady’s bullshit racism, are still fucking up the WOC’s ex partner’s (who is a really genuinely good person, with awesome feminist praxis, and also is Jewish and the accusations really play into a lot of anti-semitic stereotypes) life fucking sucks so bad.

My friend deserves so much better and I am so fucking sick of all these horrible blatant lies being believed.  I am sick of having to go in and show all the documents disproving her horrific lies.  I am sick of worrying my friend who is one of the kindest people I know and an incredibly effective organizer is going to fucking kill himself.

Fuck the leftist witch hunt bullshit.

Fuck you, toxic lying bossfucker who brought the whole thing back from the dead.

Fuck the people who won’t be happy till a good man is dead.

Oh also the accuser in this case is a white lady who defends men who hit women she deems to have ‘false consciousness’ (usually WOC) but calls anyone politically inconvenient to her rape apologists.