Women NEVER Get To Be Spider Jerusalem

Like we never get to be fucking badass, but profoundly personally flawed and gross and unsexy and like a fucking mess but in a badass way not a tragic way.  We’re always victims or villains when we’re a mess and it sucks.

I’m so sick of feminist media with these heroines who are just like blandly good, and like righteously badass in a nice socially acceptable way and respectable and modestly dressed and like pretty but not “too” pretty.  

Fuck that.  I hate that.  Give me crass heroines who make dirty jokes.  Give me drunks with hatchet faces.  Give me women voices of a generation who are shit to be in relationships with.  Give me women in “too much” makeup who are the deepest and most insightful people in the room and bitter as fuck.  Give me women who are naked in a profoundly unsexy way, but aren’t humiliated or ashamed.

Fuck respectable “practical” armor that looks bland as shit, and fuck mindlessly sexy armor too.  Give me shit that looks cool.

I don’t want to have to be nicer, sweeter, and less morally ambiguous than men to deserve my own story.  I don’t want to have to be practical to be believable as a hero.  Let me rush into battle in a fucking loincloth but not because you wanna see my titties. Respectable heroines make me gag.  Give me women like the best of 90s anti-heroes.  Give me gritty women.  Give me complex not necessarily actually good women.  Give me unlikable women who are still protagonists.  

I’m so sick of women having to be angels to avoid being cast as demons.

Being reminded that I’m almost certainly going to spend the rest of my life in a society where I have to deal with being on the wrong side of patriarchy on a daily basis is really depressing. It’s just like “Oh right, to a lot of people I’m not really quite a person, thanks for reminding me.”

It’s just so sucky that guys who were like

My fucking counterculture heroes growing up, guys who I wanted to be like, guys whose art and lives I found inspirational as fuck don’t even think of me as human because of my gender.

It doesn’t upset me cause their work is bad, it upsets me because it can speak to me so deeply and mean so much to me and them the creator doesn’t even think I’m a person, and like they make stuff about these men that are SO cool and SO human and everything I want to be and then their women are like receptacles for angst and sexual fantasies and nothing else and it just sucks because I DO see myself in them, because they DO write characters I relate to, because they DO write stories that mean shit to me.

Like that’s why a lot of 90s comics stuff gets to me, because it does mean something to me, it does speak to me and then it’s like “Yeah but it’s not for you, fuck you”

I Love How All TheseFucking TERF/SWERF/”anti-kink” types are reblogging that post I wrote about emotional labor

It’s like “well you clearly didn’t check the source on that one, y’ bougie knob, guess who manages to say insightful shit about feminism that you agree with while being according to you, a traitor to all women?”

Stop reblogging shit I write.  Your version of radical is the most liberal, bougie ass useless nonsense I have ever seen.